Tori Spelling is getting candid — and emotional — about life after her split from Dean McDermott.
On a recent episode of her misSPELLING podcast, the Beverly Hills, 90210 alum opened up to guest and friend Aubrey O’Day about the challenges she’s facing more than a year after separating from McDermott, and how she’s navigating life as a single mom of five.
“I’m 51 and single again with five kids,” Spelling said. “I don’t even know where I stand in the future. I just don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to die alone. I don’t know what I’m doing right now.”
Spelling revealed that she recently returned to therapy and is diving deep into her past in hopes of better understanding her complicated history with men.
“I just started with a new therapist. We’re going all the way back to my childhood,” she shared. “She said, ‘I don’t know where this comes from,’ but I have a very odd relationship with men.”
The raw moment brought Spelling to tears as she reflected on her uncertain future. O’Day comforted her with a hug, and Tori took a moment to acknowledge her own strength.
“You and I are strong,” she said. “They should sample my DNA when they go to the next world war. Whatever I am, I’m resilient. But what does that mean at the end of the day?”
Spelling officially filed for divorce from McDermott in March 2024, though the couple had already separated in June 2023. Together, they share five children: Liam (18), Stella (16), Hattie (13), Finn (12), and Beau (8).
While she’s largely stayed quiet about the breakup, Spelling spoke more openly in a December 2024 podcast episode, saying she doesn’t regret staying with McDermott for as long as she did — even though, in hindsight, she believes it may have harmed their children.
“I always thought, as bad as things were between me and their dad, it was better to keep him in the house,” she admitted. “I think that kept me in the relationship far too long. Ultimately, I feel it did a disservice to my kids.”
“At least on my part, wanting my kids to have both parents together kept me from making what probably would have been a better decision for them.”
